It was Thursday and i received a call from Zura, saying that abang Mail's son involved in an accident. Rumors have it that they fell down to cliff... but the actual fact was the car rammed into a tree... the driver lost control of the car as he was driving on a high speed. There were 4 of them.. including my nephew. It was around 5pm, they just got back from work heading home when the accident happen. 2 of the died on the spot. My nephew and this fellow Sabahan were rushed to the hospital. The doctor said that he's having a serious internal injuries. They just hope that God do His miracle to save my nephew, Mohd Arfan Ismail. The parents were still in Makkah doing their umrah. But they manage to go back in time for the funeral.
On Friday night, I went over to my auntie Soraya's house to help out before Dedek's akad nikah on Saturday. I was a total stranger there. I only knew a few people. Totally left out. I left early and heard that my nephew passed away around 11pm. Al-Fatihah!!!
The next day, I felt very uneasy being at auntie Soraya's place full with the people that I don't recognize. I manage to stay until after the lafaz akad nikah. Rhymie did it in one breath and Mien is officially the wife to Rhymie Rashidi Ibrahim. I tried to get away, from Mien to salam me. But she caught me, and we ended hugging and crying. The tears of joy fell down from my cheek and my only advice that I told her:"Take care of yourself, take care of your marriage. Don't leave mom and dad alone. Promise me that!" She just burst into tears. Stronger than she hugged others. I was seeing myself in her situation. What would happen to my papa, if my time to come, to marry someone. How does he feels, to give me away to my future husband (who ever he is). How would mama react for having her baby girl owned by someone else. Letting go of that responsibilities to that man, that will be my husband. How would Afrie and Nadya feels for having her sister owned by someone else. And i'm not entirely their anymore...
But what is actually marriage??? Its actually getting two families ties together in the name of love and marriage who were never have any blood ties. Its not about separating two families. But its actually putting them together.. and be as one big happy families. I don't want to loose both. Who ever that person would be (my husband) I will surely have both of our family together and surely I try to be fair to both off them.
And to my Nunez, I don't know how much you felt about me. But I know one thing for sure. I love you. I will always love you, cause i'm not finish loving you. I miss you so much. It hurts with the silence and the distance. But i'm facing it strong so that i could live another day, in time to see you come back to me. Til that day fades away, til our love couldn't bear no more, til we couldn't face it anymore... i will always love you. Always...
To abang Mail and family, my deepest condolences of your lost.
To Siti Aminah Salleh and Rhymie Rashidi Ibrahim, congratulation on your wedding and having a new family in your life. Take care of each other, and your marriage. Be very patient in everything that you do. When one of you are on fire, let another be the water. Good luck and selamat menjalani kehidupan berumahtangga.
To my Nunez, u know who you are... if you reading this... I'm saying it out how I felt about you. I love you. You are so true about that look I gave you that night. I broke the rule myself.. and I fell in love. Please let me love you... til I finish loving you....
And to all the reader... i better stop now as my tears are falling down like rain.... i can't help myself... now... i miss my papa!!!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
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