I'm so over it now. At this point of time, I don't care what people want to say about me. I know, with what they say, will hurt my family eventually. But one thing for sure, everything that I do, its between me and God.
For as long as I live my life, I know sometimes I could be a bitch.. but I don't bitches around. I have my ground that I stand on. I live my life the fullest and I don't depend on others to survive. I have my own money, my house, my own car and bike.. my stuff and belongings and my pride. If ever anyone wants to leave me, they don't make me poorer, but they made me stronger. Stronger to face life and to continue on.
A reason for me to believe that, I DONT BELIEVE IN MARRIAGE!!! Marriage is for those who don't have a reason to stay alone and can't be alone. Marriage nowadays don't brings any harmony or spirited value of a tying a knot between 2 person in love. No such thing as love anymore nowadays.
They love each other.. but not for marriage. Marriage is for people who think their problem would be solved with another problem.
What am I babling about... hahahahaha... so... for what ever reason my moods off this week... i'm letting you go now.. And i'm so over you at this point of time. I'm closing you and putting u into a very small, tiny box.. .which i don't want to see you and your families face anymore... if i ever sees you, i will make sure that you would be a totally stranger for me...
adios amigos....
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Rough February
Its a rough ride for me in February. My beloved grandfather passed away on the 9th of February due to his asthma attack. He died on his way to the hospital. I was in time to go back to pay my last respect and for his funeral. It was a rough week for me. He will be missed by all of his kids and grandchildren. My brother, Afrie came back for him too. He's close to Nek Hj Saibon. Nadya burst into tears and couldn't hold on to her emotion when she heard the news.
Then, there was my so called "sister-in-law". This case happened since last year. All these while, I looked up on her due to the misery she have during her lifetime. And pity her for what the husband (my so called "brother" - abang angkat) who is a police officer, put her through a lot of misery and rough marriage.
She screw up, when she decided to put a revenge on her husband, the way that her husband treated her. She met someone else and fall in love. I didn't know much about the details, as the only thing that I knew was what she's been telling me. But i don't have any evidence that would support me in anyway.. i mean, i don't see them going out together and everything.
Thing got worst, when my 'police brother' found out about her. I was interogated to tell him the truth. He's being a police, of course he knows how to make me talk. And finally, the true side (which i assume to be the truth) reveals. This was not the first time she did this. He knew all around his friend would tell what going on and what's not. But then again, he never reveal anything until up to he has every evidence that would make the sister-in-law drop her jaw. And of course, she suspected me for telling my 'police brother' about her and to make it real, my cousin accidentally told her that i was the one that told her husband about everything.
Now, im the bad person here.. She hates me to the guts. I thing til the world end she would hate me. She still says that I am the reason if they are divorce. She threw me out of their life and telling everyone that how bad person i am.
Well, to this point, I don't care. I don't mind losing one more friend. I've been losing them through out my life. One more doesn't make any difference. I have a few people that i could call friend. To this 'my so called no-more-sister-in-law' i was the last person that he(ur husband) found out, knew about you. He even have the details on the things that i don't even know. He also even have evidence on everything that you do. So, u want to put this blame on me, bring it on. Coz i know 1 thing for sure, i told u before to be very careful and dont play with fire. But u did.. so, deal with the consiquences... do not put blames on others so that u don't look guilty... face it as an adult... dont be a child... u're a mother of 2, you should know better....
-anak dara tua tak sedar diri- me!
Then, there was my so called "sister-in-law". This case happened since last year. All these while, I looked up on her due to the misery she have during her lifetime. And pity her for what the husband (my so called "brother" - abang angkat) who is a police officer, put her through a lot of misery and rough marriage.
She screw up, when she decided to put a revenge on her husband, the way that her husband treated her. She met someone else and fall in love. I didn't know much about the details, as the only thing that I knew was what she's been telling me. But i don't have any evidence that would support me in anyway.. i mean, i don't see them going out together and everything.
Thing got worst, when my 'police brother' found out about her. I was interogated to tell him the truth. He's being a police, of course he knows how to make me talk. And finally, the true side (which i assume to be the truth) reveals. This was not the first time she did this. He knew all around his friend would tell what going on and what's not. But then again, he never reveal anything until up to he has every evidence that would make the sister-in-law drop her jaw. And of course, she suspected me for telling my 'police brother' about her and to make it real, my cousin accidentally told her that i was the one that told her husband about everything.
Now, im the bad person here.. She hates me to the guts. I thing til the world end she would hate me. She still says that I am the reason if they are divorce. She threw me out of their life and telling everyone that how bad person i am.
Well, to this point, I don't care. I don't mind losing one more friend. I've been losing them through out my life. One more doesn't make any difference. I have a few people that i could call friend. To this 'my so called no-more-sister-in-law' i was the last person that he(ur husband) found out, knew about you. He even have the details on the things that i don't even know. He also even have evidence on everything that you do. So, u want to put this blame on me, bring it on. Coz i know 1 thing for sure, i told u before to be very careful and dont play with fire. But u did.. so, deal with the consiquences... do not put blames on others so that u don't look guilty... face it as an adult... dont be a child... u're a mother of 2, you should know better....
-anak dara tua tak sedar diri- me!
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